Scene from a few minutes ago here in Amherst, in a grey living room in the Boulders:

Thinking about my sister earlier tonight, being stubborn and talking like she's going to quit her long-sought new job just because she has to sit at a desk for eight hours a day... thinking how she said instead, she might teach. Thinking how the President and his friends aren't doing a damn thing to put useful people like us to work, and all of a sudden I realize I've been saying "I want so badly to be useful" over and over without knowing I was saying it.

And across the room Jen is smiling beatifically at me, and I don't know why, and then I hear ducks quacking, and this loopy vocal music issues from her laptop.

And she's looking at the most beautiful and heartening online animation I've ever seen.

I want so badly to be useful. Posted by Gus at April 13, 2003 01:23 AM | TrackBack